That really says it all. Ever feel that way?
I did not want to stick to my diet tonight. I did not want to exercise. I did not want to think about Diabetes tonight. I did not want to stick my finger. Nothing to do with it. I mean, it’s probably going to be with me for my entire life, what’s one night?
Ever feel like that? I did tonight…a strong dose of self-pity. I was the victim. Why did I have Diabetes? Why would anyone ever choose to be a Diabetic? Why would anyone ever choose to take meds, if they didn’t need to? And, yet, every person who has Prediabetes and does nothing about it is making that choice. But, that’s another post.
So, what did I do? Well, to put it bluntly I did nothing. I had a bit extra at dinner, although I did not stray too far from my diet. It’s really ingrained in me, now. It’s how I eat. It’s the amount I eat. So, I really couldn’t screw that up very much. That realization was kind of discouraging to me. I have trained myself too well.
Ahhh, but, I did not exercise. I convinced myself it was too cold outside. Too dark. Too…well, too everything. That took – I did not get my rear out. But, then I checked my blood sugar a little over 2 hours after eating; I really didn’t like the number I saw. Again, habit. And, again, habit took over when I did a few leg lifts and push-ups – 45 of each. That took me about five of six minutes. I checked my blood sugar a bit later. Much better.
This is my life if I want to control a disease. Diet. Exercise. Meds. I would not wish it on anyone. Although, when I am not drowning in self-pit, I know we are lucky. Diabetes can be managed; so many other diseases cannot be managed. We can choose to control our disease. We can choose to conquer it. We can master it. After a while it becomes habit, like I found out tonight. And, sometimes, you just have to suck it up.
You can do it. You can win the fight. You can take those steps that will lead to victory over Diabetes. If you haven’t, make the decision today that you will no longer be a victim.
As always, thank you for reading.